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| One of the images in In Our Own Words by Martha Little. |
鈥淚 get caught and go to jail so I don鈥檛 hurt myself ... to stop beatin鈥� the hell outta myself. I hurt.鈥�
鈥淚 call myself a sick person trying to get off my journey.鈥�
鈥淭he guilt kills you ... what you鈥檝e done to your family. I鈥檇 walk to the middle of the bridge.鈥�
When Martha Little was thinking of what she could do as a project for one of her nursing classes, the fourth-year Community Health Nursing, the voices of the people she met during her practicum at the Mainline Needle Exchange on Cornwallis Street ran through her head. Addicted, impoverished and yet striving for understanding, 鈥渢hey were barely treated as human anymore. I wanted to empower these people, who are traditionally voiceless. I wanted to de-stigmatize them.鈥�
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鈥淚 realize,鈥� she continues, 鈥渋t鈥檚 kinda like turning around the Queen Mary in a tight spot, but you鈥檝e got to try 鈥� right?鈥�
Back at university some 30 years after her first degree, Ms. Little, 55, turned to what she knew best: art making.
鈥淲hen I went back to school I was definitely the old girl in class,鈥� she says with a laugh. Since June she鈥檚 been working with patients with mental health issues at the Abbie J. Lane Hospital. 鈥淏ut I鈥檓 happy to say I graduated with distinction, woo hoo!鈥�
Her exhibition, In Our Own Words, a Glimpse Behind the Stigma of Crack Addiction, ran for several weeks earlier this summer. Consisting of collages collected in ziplock baggies, the art pieces hung in the window of Propeller Brewery and were visible inside the brewery and on Gottingen street.
She interviewed six crack-addicted clients of Mainline 鈥� using their faces and words as the basis for the work. The results are poignant, disturbing, unforgettable. One addict who didn鈥檛 want his face used is represented as a coyote, 鈥渂ecause they fend for themselves,鈥� he told her.
He also described what crack means to him 鈥� 鈥減uking, shitting, the sweats, your eyes water, you shake. You don鈥檛 want to move. It鈥檚 miserable ... one hundred times worse than the flu. You get depressed. It scares you cause you get that sick. Your body won鈥檛 let you stop. But your mind wants to.鈥�
Ms. Little is particularly interested in other health-care workers seeing the exhibition so that she can bring some understanding to the underlying, deep-seated problems faced by addicted people. For example, the six people she interviewed are dealing with much more than drug abuse; they鈥檝e been abandoned as children, sexually abused, mutilated themselves and been in trouble with the law.
鈥淧eople experiencing drug addictions are treated badly, that鈥檚 what they tell me. They鈥檙e judged as drug seeking, no matter what ails them.鈥�
Diane Bailey, program director at Mainline Needle Exchange, calls the exhibition "amazing." A recovering addict herself, she says it's hard for people to look past the addiction to see the person underneath. The Mainline Needle Exchange program is a health promotion project dedicated to supporting current and former drug users through harm reduction programs.
鈥淎ll of a sudden they鈥檒l look at you differently and you鈥檙e judged. You鈥檙e an addict,鈥� she says. 鈥淚 think that鈥檚 what鈥檚 amazing about Martha鈥檚 work 鈥� the clients are presented as being more than an addiction.鈥�
鈥淚t鈥檚 so complex and people tend to simplify it down to 'you鈥檝e got a choice: stop or continue,'鈥� explains Megan Aston, associate professor with the School of Nursing. 鈥淚f only it was so easy. But, as Martha鈥檚 exhibition shows, addiction is a complex story.鈥�
READ:聽The essay by Megan Aston that accompanied Martha Little's exhibition. (doc)